I'm breaking apart..

I don't know what to do , really ...
Should i run away?
Should i go forwarD?
For the first time....i wanted to cry so bad , to get it out so bad...
But there was only one tear...
It hurts...
I'm scared..
It feels like i'm breaking apart...
I know i need to think positive ..but i don't know how to..
It doesn't work..
It hurts..
Why should i feel like this?
I just wanna run away...
I sick , I'm tired....
Don't wanna fight anymore...